On October 29 2012 I was on my way to work and I was feeling horrible.. I thought I had the flu. I called my mom (mainly because just the sound of her voice can comfort me, her sick child). I had mentioned earlier in the week that I was late on my period, so of course she says "You might be pregnant". I laughed and said "There is no way!! I would know if I was pregnant and Im not!" Then as the day went on I was talking to a friend and she said that I had some of the signs of pregnancy and that I should take a test. So after having 2 people in one day tell me they thought I was pregnant I started wondering. I figured it would probably be a good idea to take a pregnancy test just in case. During my lunch break I ran to walmart to grab a test, and as I was about to turn down the aisle I saw my aunt and Uncle. I had to act casual just in case I really was pregnant, I didn't want it getting out. As soon as they turned their heads I ran and grabbed the first pregnancy test I saw and had to run all the way around the store to avoid them.
I got home and at this point I was still convinced I wasn't pregnant. I had taken many pregnancy tests before during some pregnancy scares and they had all turned up negative, so I thought this one would too....
3 minutes later It popped up...PREGNANT!!
My jaw dropped. I honestly was in Shock. I really didn't believe it. I went and hid it in my dresser and as I was heading out the door I remember looking down at my stomach and I just started bawling. It hit me right then... I had a baby inside of me.... My future child. I cried the whole way to work. I was so happy/scared/confused.
As soon as I got to work I looked up "Ways to tell your spouse your pregnant". There were so many ideas but I just stuck with a simple way and bought a onesie that says "I Love Dad".
When he got home he went out and started doing yard work. I was so excited to tell him and kept bugging him to come inside because I had an early birthday present for him. He finally came in and sat down and I handed him the gift bag. He pulled the onesie out and said "I knew it!!"... He was so excited and I started bawling again..(just the beginning of the emotional rollercoaster) That night we went to my parents to carve pumpkins and it honestly killed me not to tell them.
I called the doctor the next day and set up an appointment for November 9th. Josh wasn't going to be able to make it to the appointment because he had to work so of course I wanted my mom there. I went over the night before the appointment and hung out with my mom. My dad and the boys were doing baptisms for the dead at the temple. I wanted to tell all of them at once. Josh really wanted to be there too but he had to work and I just had to tell somebody. That night, as my mom and I were eating dinner and talking she said "I really want you to have a baby"...little did she know that I would be telling her later that night that she was going to be a grandma. :)
As soon as my dad and the boys walked in the door I grabbed my moms ipad and pushed record and started my plan. I made a fake Christmas list of baby stuff and gave it to my mom and said "Mom I think Josh is going to need help finding this stuff on my Christmas list, could you help him?" She looked at the list and set it down confused shaking her head. She looked at me and laughed and I said "Mom, im pregnant!!" She just started crying and she was saying "Really? You're kidding!?"
That was when my dad walked in and saw her crying and said "Oh, what did you do now"
"Im pregnant dad!" :) Then Keaton realized what was going on and was bummed out because he will be gone on his mission when the baby is born.
When Carson walked in I handed him the "Christmas list" and he just looked at it and set it down. "CARSON IM PREGNANT!" ....then he said "Well that's weird" Hahaha that boy cracks me up... I cant wait to see my parents as grandparents and my brothers as uncles.
So the next morning my mom and I went to the appointment with Dr. Brietenbach. We were trying to figure out how far along I was and I was guessing I was about 4-6 weeks along...Turns out I was 9 weeks!! I couldn't believe it! The Doctors appointment made everything seem so real!! Im going to be a mommy!!
I am now 13 weeks and 1 day. I haven't been too sick. I've only actually been "sick sick" 4 times. I'm truly grateful that im not sick like my mother was. She lost weight during her pregnancy and was hospitalized because she was so sick.
I've heard the heartbeat 3 times now (it makes it much easier when your mom is an OB nurse and I can just walk into her work and have her do it for me) I absolutely LOVE hearing that little heart beat. It is truly amazing.
I am so grateful to be carrying this sweet child and I can't wait to hold this baby in my arms!! I am so grateful that my Heavenly Father has blessed me with the privlage of bearing children. I know there are so many out there who would be great parents and are trying and cannot conceive and I pray for them...
I know that even tho we are absolutely terrified about how to raise this child and how to afford everything, Heavenly Father will comfort us and help us know what we need to do. :)
I will update after our next appointment :-)
Here are some pictures:
10 week photo
12 1/2 weeks
