Families are Forever

A few weekends ago my mom had to go the the hospital because she was having chest pains. I was in Bountiful and when I heard the news I started bawling..all I wanted to do was be there with her. My mom has had heart problems in the past and I was so afraid that those were coming back. I couldn't even think straight. Then, she got sent out to the SLC hospital which of course made me panic even more. I just kept telling myself  "She can't die, she needs to be a grandma and she promised me she would deliver my future children." It really made me realize how short life really is and that we can't take this time we have for granted. My mom recovered and was sent home. I was so relieved and grateful that Heavenly Father helped her to get well. I know without a doubt that Heavenly Father listens to our prayers. I am so grateful for that knowledge. I am also so very grateful for my Beautiful Mom. <3
Everything was finally getting back to normal and then I found out a friend from school committed suicide. That was really hard to take in. He was so young but I know he's in a better place. His funeral was beautiful and it really made me realize that Heavenly father comforts us when we really  need it. I felt the spirit stronger in there than I have felt it in a really long time. The testimonies I heard at that funeral were exactly what I needed to hear...because that night is when I would get the phone call that my grandpa had passed away.
   I was in shock. I didn't think I heard it right. I handed the phone to Josh knowing that he could talk to my dad and find out the stuff I wasn't ready to hear right then. We went to my parents house and it broke my heart to see my mom so sad. She has lost 2 fathers in her lifetime now. I can't imagine the pain she feels. My dad, josh and a few of my uncles gave my mom a blessing. I am so grateful for the Priesthood at a time like this.
I spent the whole day with her and watched as family and friends came by to share their love and concern for her.So many phone calls and messages. It was so comforting to see how many people really cared about us. I am so grateful for everyone of them. It means so much.
I know that my Grandpa is happy. I know that he is watching over us and he loves us all so much. I just wish more than anything that I would have called him one more time to say "I love you" I wish I could go back in time and let him know what a wonderful example he has been to me throughout my life. He was such a wonderful man. Always so happy and he could always make my day better. I saw him exactly one month ago and I am so grateful that I was able to see him when I did. I wrote him a note before they came to vernal  saying how much I love him that I forgot to give him before he left and now I wish so so bad that I would have given it to him. I kept getting a feeling before they left to give him the note and I just kept pushing it aside thinking "i'll give it to him next time, or mail it to him." I should have listened to the spirit. But I know that my grandpa knows I love him and that is what I have to keep telling myself.
Today I also found out that my cousin is having a baby. Congratulations to Alesha and Andrew. This news brightened my day so much. It really helped me remember that even when we lose someone in our lives, someone new always seems to come along, whether it's a friend or a brand new family member. Heavenly Father knew I needed to hear that news.

I am so eternally grateful for this gospel. Jesus Christ suffered for our sins so that we could return to our Heavenly Father and so we can be with our families forever. Heavenly Father knows the pain we are going through and He is more than willing to listen to our prayers and comfort us in this time of need. I am grateful for the knowledge that this is not the end. I will see my Grandpa again. I am so excited for that day when I can see him and give him a big hug again.
I love you Grandpa. You'll be forever missed. Xoxox
Love,
Your little Jessica Jill...

"With celestial sight, trials impossible to change become 

possible to endure."

--Russell M. Nelson