13 days and counting....

Holy Moly!!

It has been TOO long since I blogged.. I need to do better.. Hopefully once our little man gets here I will have more to blog about. 

 I am 38 weeks. I still can't believe it! Today Josh came home and said "Babe, I have some Good news!!" 

Me: "What is it?!?"

Josh: "Our baby is coming in 2 weeks!!!"

Yes I do agree, that is some WONDERFUL news! :) It makes me so happy to think that in 2 weeks...or less I could be holding my sweet baby boy in my arms. I have all sorts of emotions right now. 

Anxious

Nervous

EXCITED

Happy

Terrified

Unsure

Blessed

and many more that I can't even think of. :)

Life has been hectic lately.

Lots of cleaning, organizing and planning. I never realized just how much stuff a baby needs. I feel SO blessed to have received almost everything I needed from friends and family at my baby showers. Heavenly Father has blessed Josh and I with some of the most wonderful friends/family. 

We finally finished the nursery. There are just a few last finishing touches I need to put up. As soon as I do I will post some pictures. 

Every time I walk into the nursery I get butterflies. I picture our baby boy in his crib and I start to tear up. I feel so blessed that Heavenly Father is blessing us with one of his children. 

Well I better update ya on the baby...

I have been having weekly appointments for about a month now. 2 weeks ago my belly was measuring 32 cm...which is pretty small for being 36 weeks. So then Dr. B told me to go get an Ultra sound and a Nonstress test to make sure that the baby is doin good. They wanted to check and make sure I don't have IUGR- Intrauterine Growth Restriction: The most common definition of intrauterine growth restriction (IUGR) is a fetal weight that is below the 10th percentile for gestational age as determined through an ultrasound. This can also be called small-for gestational age (SGA) or fetal growth restriction.

At the ultra sound I found out  that our  baby boy is in the 6th Percentile. He is a little baby. I'm not surprised tho. I was only 4 pounds 7 oz when I was born and Josh was only 5 pounds 5 oz.  

While I was in getting the ultra sound, the Tech says "Oh good, it's still a GIRL" 

I had to think twice about what he said. I of course replied with a big "WHAT?!" I started freakin out for a minute. Not that I wouldn't want a baby girl, I just have SO much boy stuff that I think she would have to dress like a boy for the first few weeks.

He was kidding...

I am still carrying a sweet baby BOY :)

At my appointment on Wednesday I was still measuring only 32 cm. Dr. B is starting to get a little worried so he is having me get another ultra sound this coming monday. If the amniotic fluid is low or something doesn't look right Dr. B said we will deliver him ASAP. I pray everything is okay with our little man.

I know there are some things I am going to miss about being pregnant but I think the thing I'll miss the most is feeling him move around and kick throughout the day/night. It is the most amazing feeling and I can't even explain how much joy it brings me when I feel that movement. 

These past few weeks his movements have gotten bigger and stronger. I could sit for hours and watch him move. It amazes me..

A couple weeks ago I went to visit my mom at work (she is an OB nurse). At this point I was 35 weeks. They had just delivered a baby who was only 35 weeks. I sat and stared at that tiny baby for a while, realizing that my baby is about the same size and IN my stomach. It is pretty crazy to see it like that. I now understand why I am seeing and feeling every single movement.

Life is a Miracle.

30 weeks and Diabetes!

Hello :)

Sorry it has been a couple months since my last blog, but thanks to the wonderful "pregnancy brain" I forgot my Doctors appointment last month. :/ 

So Yesterday I went in for my monthly check up and everything is looking Great. I am 30 weeks today!! I can't believe I have only 10 weeks left til I can hold and kiss my sweet baby boy. :) <3 I am SO excited. Today I did my glucose test and for anyone who doesn't know what that is, it's to test for Gestational Diabetes. You pretty much go in and get your finger poked, then drink this SUPER sweet drink, wait an hour, get finger poked again and then Ta da, you you have your results. Pretty exciting. ;) 

Well apparently my blood sugar was higher than it should be....so  I have Gestational Diabetes. 

I had NO idea what this was...all I knew is that it could make my baby big!! 

Here is a picture to help you understand what it is:

Lovely picture right?? Sorry its kinda graphic... 

You know what the chances of me getting this were??? 7 out of 100 pregnant women get it, and I just happen to be one of those lucky 7. :D But the reason I have it is because it runs in the family and that heightens the risk of me getting it.

Sooo..

I got to my parents for lunch after finding this out and I honestly just stood in front of their cupboard and stared... I had NO idea what I was allowed to eat...and anyone who knows my mom's cupboards they're ALL filled with sweets and candy, so I was having a really hard time not grabbing a starcrunch cookie.

I was told to go to a dietitian who would help me figure out what Im supposed to do and how to eat..

I think these next 10 weeks are gonna be LONG cause now I can't just sit and binge on my favorite cookies. :( I actually have to watch what im eating and then poke my self 3 times a day. I am dreading that part the most, because anyone who knows me knows that I don't do so good with blood..especially my own. The dietitian taught me how to prick my finger and I was doin good till I had to squeeze some blood out and then I got a little light headed, so hopefully I can get over this fear or else Josh might come home to find me passed out on the floor. :/ 

I just have to keep telling myself that it's for the baby. I think that will help me relax a little. I would do ANYTHING for this sweet baby boy to be healthy.. <3

Baby Boy News :)

Sorry it's been a while since I last updated. I've been so caught up with work and getting ready for our little man to get here. :)
At my last appointment my Doctor pushed my due date back to June 20th. So according to that I am 26 Weeks tomorrow. Woo 14 weeks to go!!
I am now feeling and seeing baby boy move ALL the time, which I don't mind at all. I Love it. I love feeling him and just sitting and watching him move. It is amazing to think about what a miracle it is.
We are getting closer to finishing the nursery. :D It is so exciting to see it all come together.
 I will for sure post pictures when it's All Done. :)


Here is the most recent Ultra Sound.. This was at 22 Weeks.

Doesn't he have the CUTEST face!?!?

26 week Belly :)

BABY BOY

These past few weeks have been so busy that I have had hardly anytime to catch up on here...
On January 9th we found out we would be bringing a sweet little BOY into the world. We found out at about 4:00 pm and let me tell you...that day seemed to D    R      A         G  on FOREVER!!
Finally 3:30 came and I was on my way to the hospital. I was so excited I was shaking. I called Josh to see where he was and of course he had to joke around with me.. He said he had locked his keys in the house and he wouldn't be able to make it to the ultra sound, and of course I started crying (I blame the hormones). That's when Josh realized he should probably stop joking around with me. :) He was on his way. :)
Finally the time was here! We wanted to wait a few minutes to find out the gender so my mom could be there too (she was just down the hall dealing with a labor patient). So the ultrasound tech said she would just start at the top to make sure the baby was healthy and everything looked okay. She started with his head and eventually made her way down to his  heart. I almost cried being able to see his little tiny heart beat.I never realized how happy that would make me. <3
Then we got to see a side profile of him and my goodness that boy is a little ninja. He was just kickin and stretching the whole time. There was one moment where I saw him kick and felt it at the same time. That finally confirmed what I had been feeling in my stomach.
My mom finally got a break and ran down to see what her future grandchild would be....
I didnt even give the ultrasound tech a chance to tell us what we were having..she went over his little part and  I said "ITS A BOY" and I was right. :) Josh was thrilled. :) He said "I knew it all along!! Now I dont have to buy a barbie dirtbike"
And of course I started crying (tears of happiness). I am anxiously awaiting June so I can hold our sweet baby boy..
Here are the pictures we got..sorry they're not the best, I had to take pictures of the pics with my cell phone.

This is his face. He looks like a little alien.

His face again.

The side of him. He is face down in this picture.

And proof he's a boy :)

BABY NEWS!!

My goodness I haven't blogged in forever!! I figured it would be a good idea to blog alot more throughout my pregnancy so I have something to remember later on in life. So here goes:

On October 29 2012 I was on my way to work and I was feeling horrible.. I thought I had the flu. I called my mom (mainly because just the sound of her voice can comfort me, her sick child). I had mentioned earlier in the week that I was late on my period, so of course she says "You might be pregnant". I laughed and said "There is no way!! I would know if I was pregnant and Im not!" Then as the day went on I was talking to a friend and she said that I had some of the signs of pregnancy and that I should take a test. So after having 2 people in one day tell me they thought I was pregnant I started wondering. I figured it would probably be a good idea to take a pregnancy test just in case. During my lunch break I ran to walmart to grab a test, and as I was about to turn down the aisle I saw my aunt and Uncle. I had to act casual just in case I really was pregnant, I didn't want it getting out. As soon as they turned their heads I ran and grabbed the first pregnancy test I saw and had to run all the way around the store to avoid them.

 I got home and at this point I was still convinced I wasn't pregnant. I had taken many pregnancy tests before during some pregnancy scares and they had all turned up negative, so I thought this one would too.... 

3 minutes later It popped up...PREGNANT!! 

My jaw dropped. I honestly was in Shock. I really didn't believe it. I went and hid it in my dresser and as I was heading out the door I remember looking down at my stomach and I just started bawling. It hit me right then... I had a baby inside of me.... My future child. I cried the whole way to work. I was so happy/scared/confused.

As soon as I got to work I looked up "Ways to tell your spouse your pregnant". There were so many ideas but I just stuck with a simple way and bought a onesie that says "I Love Dad". 

When he got home he went out and started doing yard work. I was so excited to tell him and kept bugging him to come inside because I had an early birthday present for him. He finally came in and sat down and I handed him the gift bag. He pulled the onesie out and said "I knew it!!"... He was so excited and I started bawling again..(just the beginning of the emotional rollercoaster) That night we went to my parents to carve pumpkins and it honestly killed me not to tell them. 

 I called the doctor the next day and set up an appointment for November 9th. Josh wasn't going to be able to make it to the appointment because he had to work so of course I wanted my mom there. I went over the night before the appointment and hung out with my mom. My dad and the boys were doing baptisms for the dead at the temple. I wanted to tell all of them at once. Josh really wanted to be there too but he had to work and I just had to tell somebody. That night, as my mom and I were eating dinner and talking she said "I really want you to have a baby"...little did she know that I would be telling her later that night that she was going to be a grandma. :) 

As soon as my dad and the boys walked in the door I grabbed my moms ipad and pushed record and started my plan. I made a fake Christmas list of baby stuff and gave it to my mom and said "Mom I think Josh is going to need help finding this stuff on my Christmas list, could you help him?" She looked at the list and set it down confused shaking her head. She looked at me and laughed and I said "Mom, im pregnant!!" She just started crying and she was saying "Really? You're kidding!?" 

That was when my dad walked in and saw her crying and said "Oh, what did you do now" 

"Im pregnant dad!" :) Then Keaton realized what was going on and was bummed out because he will be gone on his mission when the baby is born. 

When Carson walked in I handed him the "Christmas list" and he just looked at it and set it down. "CARSON IM PREGNANT!" ....then he said "Well that's weird" Hahaha that boy cracks me up... I cant wait to see my parents as grandparents and my brothers as uncles. 

So the next morning my mom and I went to the appointment with Dr. Brietenbach. We were trying to figure out how far along I was and I was guessing I was about 4-6 weeks along...Turns out I was 9 weeks!! I couldn't believe it! The Doctors appointment made everything seem so real!! Im going to be a mommy!!

I am now 13 weeks and 1 day. I haven't been too sick. I've only actually been "sick sick" 4 times. I'm truly grateful that im not sick like my mother was. She lost weight during her pregnancy and was hospitalized because she was so sick. 

I've heard the heartbeat 3 times now (it makes it much easier when your mom is an OB nurse and I can just walk into her work and have her do it for me) I absolutely LOVE hearing that little heart beat. It is truly amazing. 

I am so grateful to be carrying this sweet child and I can't wait to hold this baby in my arms!! I am so grateful that my Heavenly Father has blessed me with the privlage of bearing children. I know there are so many out there who would be great parents and are trying and cannot conceive and I pray for them...

I know that even tho we are absolutely terrified about how to raise this child and how to afford everything, Heavenly Father will comfort us and help us know what we need to do.  :)

I will update after our next appointment :-)

Here are some pictures:

10 week photo

12 1/2 weeks

Families are Forever

A few weekends ago my mom had to go the the hospital because she was having chest pains. I was in Bountiful and when I heard the news I started bawling..all I wanted to do was be there with her. My mom has had heart problems in the past and I was so afraid that those were coming back. I couldn't even think straight. Then, she got sent out to the SLC hospital which of course made me panic even more. I just kept telling myself  "She can't die, she needs to be a grandma and she promised me she would deliver my future children." It really made me realize how short life really is and that we can't take this time we have for granted. My mom recovered and was sent home. I was so relieved and grateful that Heavenly Father helped her to get well. I know without a doubt that Heavenly Father listens to our prayers. I am so grateful for that knowledge. I am also so very grateful for my Beautiful Mom. <3
Everything was finally getting back to normal and then I found out a friend from school committed suicide. That was really hard to take in. He was so young but I know he's in a better place. His funeral was beautiful and it really made me realize that Heavenly father comforts us when we really  need it. I felt the spirit stronger in there than I have felt it in a really long time. The testimonies I heard at that funeral were exactly what I needed to hear...because that night is when I would get the phone call that my grandpa had passed away.
   I was in shock. I didn't think I heard it right. I handed the phone to Josh knowing that he could talk to my dad and find out the stuff I wasn't ready to hear right then. We went to my parents house and it broke my heart to see my mom so sad. She has lost 2 fathers in her lifetime now. I can't imagine the pain she feels. My dad, josh and a few of my uncles gave my mom a blessing. I am so grateful for the Priesthood at a time like this.
I spent the whole day with her and watched as family and friends came by to share their love and concern for her.So many phone calls and messages. It was so comforting to see how many people really cared about us. I am so grateful for everyone of them. It means so much.
I know that my Grandpa is happy. I know that he is watching over us and he loves us all so much. I just wish more than anything that I would have called him one more time to say "I love you" I wish I could go back in time and let him know what a wonderful example he has been to me throughout my life. He was such a wonderful man. Always so happy and he could always make my day better. I saw him exactly one month ago and I am so grateful that I was able to see him when I did. I wrote him a note before they came to vernal  saying how much I love him that I forgot to give him before he left and now I wish so so bad that I would have given it to him. I kept getting a feeling before they left to give him the note and I just kept pushing it aside thinking "i'll give it to him next time, or mail it to him." I should have listened to the spirit. But I know that my grandpa knows I love him and that is what I have to keep telling myself.
Today I also found out that my cousin is having a baby. Congratulations to Alesha and Andrew. This news brightened my day so much. It really helped me remember that even when we lose someone in our lives, someone new always seems to come along, whether it's a friend or a brand new family member. Heavenly Father knew I needed to hear that news.

I am so eternally grateful for this gospel. Jesus Christ suffered for our sins so that we could return to our Heavenly Father and so we can be with our families forever. Heavenly Father knows the pain we are going through and He is more than willing to listen to our prayers and comfort us in this time of need. I am grateful for the knowledge that this is not the end. I will see my Grandpa again. I am so excited for that day when I can see him and give him a big hug again.
I love you Grandpa. You'll be forever missed. Xoxox
Love,
Your little Jessica Jill...

"With celestial sight, trials impossible to change become 

possible to endure."

--Russell M. Nelson

Summer Days

Can I just say that working in the summer is not fun!. I miss being a kid and having an endless summer to do whatever I wanted...actually I should rephrase that, having an endless summer to do whatever my Mom let me do. :)

Almost every saturday this past month we've gone to the lake. I LOVE It! Josh and I bought a little boat so we've been taking that out to go fishing. Of course, my idea of fishing is Josh setting up my fishing pole for me, then me throwing the line into the water (which it never gets far) and then me laying down and soaking in the sun. I have yet to catch anything.... I wonder why. ;) The days Josh and I go to the lake are my favorite. It's a perfect time for us to just sit and talk and enjoy our time together both doing something we love. I haven't taken many pictures of us on the boat because my camera has no memory card and I dont like taking my phone out on the boat. But no worries, I have a whole summer to take pictures of us with our boat. :D

Last week I went to the lake with my cousins and my brothers. It was a blast. It was perfect weather when we got up there and after about 1 hour the winds started coming in. I decided that since we don't have an ocean, the best time to go the lake to get the "ocean effect" is when its CRAZY wind.. It was so fun jumping into the waves with the cousins. I felt like I was at the ocean....a very very small ocean. hahaha. 

I couldn't capture the waves very well on my phone. :/ 

I also went to the lake with my brothers Carson and Ben a few days ago. As we were getting ready to leave Ben (11) asked to take my Keys so he could change in my car. I of course let him take them...

Then as Carson and I were walking up the car I heard a car alarm going off...Ben came walking towards me with a "guilty" look on his face. "Jessica, I locked the Keys in your car"...

I of course was freaking out because those are the only keys I have to the car because they're those fancy keys that cost a bunch to make doubles of. Poor Ben felt horrible. He is a pro at makin someone feel guilty for yelling at him. He can pull those big teary eyes out of no where.

 I called  my mom panicking! I didn't know what to do. My mother being the amazing women she is found a police officer who was more than willing to come and save the day.He whipped out a little plastic wedge, and something that looked like a blood pressure cuff and a LONG stick. He used just those 3 simple things to unlock my car. I think I should carry a bloodpressure cuff around with me now ;). The officer was so kind and didnt charge us a thing..Even tho he had to go out of his way to do this for us.

Lots of Loves

xoxoxox

Jess n Josh